Its been a while....

Since I have updated things. Katy was in Texas, living as a guest on an Army base for a while, finding out what her life might look like. Ty's orders have come in, and for right now, he is considered "non-deployable". He is a Cav Scout SSG in the "Army Weapons Evaluation Force" and gets to try out all the experimental stuff - traveling from Texas to Alaska to Louisiana. It might be fun for him. Katy has decided to do the Baking program. She & Ty attended Hillside Baptist Church- nope.... and SG El Paso - liked the people.
Lord, please speak to her, giving her peace, letting her know where next to step

Michelle and Michael seem to be doing well. Michelle is due soon and after a flurry of "nesting activity", is starting to feel quite tired - and having random contractions.

Oh yes, and I turned 53. wow. A lot is in front of me. I need to have the Euclid House fixed up to rent the first floor. I will work on the second. Chris will be having some funds removed from Mom's annuity, since he cannot work right now. That will help take some of the burden off me. Between renting and the annuity, that will be considerably less I will have to make this year. I want to have us be a little more secure financially, as we will probably be spending more in '08. I'm still deciding what to do work-wise. I suppose on paper, the best thing would be to rent out Euclid completely - to replace the house payment and have them handle utilities. That would take everything except property taxes, upkeep and insurance off me. Not sure where I would work, though. Katy asked that I not become some one's "Employee" until she is out of the house. My time would be a lot less flexible. Of course, God can change anything he wants, but she could be gone as early as this time next year...wow.

I am also VERY excited about Christmas this year. What a party it will be! Michael& Michelle and little Carson, Sam&Cassie& kids, Ty and his family, the Currans and my dad and mother-in-law! happy! happy! Joy! joy!

Katy "texted" me today just to tell me she loves me. No reason other than that. Regardless of anything that might happen work or money-wise, those three little words, "love you mom" - is all I need to feel successful. To meet a financial goal is fun and rewarding, but to forever effect my children's life is the deepest joy I could ever know.

I Got Dressed Yesterday, and Today, Too

I've been struggling. I thought I've been keeping it hidden but since I'm so deceived, I've probably been deceiving myself about that. (See Jeremiah 17:9 about that.) Regardless, of late I've been having a hard time locating a reason to get out of bed, get dressed, or do much of anything constructive. This really is not like me or so I'd like to think.

I think these past 16 months have been a stretch. Who could've foreseen unemployment at this stage of life, let alone 16 months of it? But then, why not? All around me I see people going through much more difficult and significant issues than what's happening in our little corner of life. Why would I think we should be untouched by the effects of a sin-filled world? Why wouldn't it be our turn to be in a position to turn our eyes to Christ and learn what it means to fully trust Him for all our needs? But for God and His gracious kindness and mercy, where would we be? To whom could we turn? Our God is a faithful God and worthy to be praised. He has supplied each and every need, in abundance, and right on time.

I found this little message from Rick Ezell to be helpful. His words bring helpful perspective.

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But It's Mine . . . Wrong!
by Rick Ezell

As subjects of God's kingdom, our time on earth, along with our energy, intelligence, opportunities, relationships, and resources are all gifts from God. He has entrusted all these things to our care and management. The first job God gave humans was to manage and take care of God's "stuff" on earth. This role has never been rescinded. Everything we enjoy is to be treated as a trust that God has placed in our hands.

From the beginning of Scripture we are reminded over and over again that God owns it all. He created it. He owns it. It belongs to him.

Yet everyday we face the temptation to play the part of the owner. Here is where the dark side of ownership is manifested, and trusteeship is often abandoned.

In the final book of the trilogy The Lord of the Rings, J. R. R. Tolkien introduces the tragic figure of Lord Denethor, chief steward of the kingdom of Gondor. Denethor has ordered Gondor's affairs for years while waiting on the coming king. But as he waited, he grew comfortable of the throne-and reluctant to relinquish it. When the new king arrives, Denethor refuses to step down. In the film version, the wise counselor Gandalf rebukes him: "Authority is not given you to deny the rule of the king, Steward." Denethor shouts back: "Rule of Gondor is mine and no other's!"

Desperate to cling to what was not his own, Denethor lost sight of his rightful place. His life is symbolic of the small and pathetic existence of those who forget they are trustees and think of themselves-like God-owners.

God's view of your life and mine is that of a trust. God has never said to humanity, "All this is yours." Instead, he says, "All this is mine. But I am entrusting it to you. Use it to honor and serve me." You and I would be most wise to draw clear lines between investing and exploitation, between management and control, between caretaking and domination, between use and waste. You and I would be well advised to remember that all we possess is a gift from God. It is ours on loan, not ours to own.

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